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Now You Are Still …. Losing My Baby Girl

Post author By Tara
Post date July 27, 2017
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“Now You Are Still”: Losing My Baby Girl

Tara Carpenter, NC., CPES

I wrote the poem below in 2006 while in the hospital recovering from a sepsis infection I got moments after losing my baby girl. You can read more in detail about that loss here, please know there are photos that may be disturbing to some in that post.

In the palm of my hand, you are at peace, you are still.

Moments prior you were stretching, kicking.

Now, I explore you who spent 15 weeks inside me, warm and safe.

Now you are still.

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What I Ate During Severe Morning Sickness

Post author By Tara
Post date February 24, 2017
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I’ve had severe morning sickness (a.k.a. hyperemesis gravidarum, HG) a total of three times. During those times, no one was able to cook in the kitchen because the smell made me vomit. We ate take-out or processed food. I could only eat food that was fresh and made somewhere else. I couldn’t eat anything unless I craved it in every cell of my being. It had to be the very exact thing, otherwise I couldn’t fathom eating.

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I Had Hyperemesis Gravidarum: 3 times

Post author By Tara
Post date March 4, 2016
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I Had Hyperemesis Gravidarum: 3 times

Tara Carpenter, NC., CPES.

I had severe morning sickness, a.k.a. hyperemesis gravidarum (HG), with all three of my pregnancies and each was worse than the one before …. 12 weeks with my first son, 15 weeks with my daughter that I miscarried, and the full 40 weeks with my second son.

Labor was easy compared to the weeks and months living in a nauseas torturous state where I was unable to lift my head, read a book, or drink more than a teaspoon of water. I’d give birth any day if it meant avoiding the nausea and suffering, I felt during pregnancy.

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Miscarriage: A Mother’s Love Never Dies

Post author By Tara
Post date November 14, 2015
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Miscarriage: A Mother’s Love Never Dies

Tara Carpenter, NC., CPES.

This post contains photos that may be disturbing, view at own discretion.

On July 27th 2006, I lost a baby girl so tiny she fit in my palm with her legs dangling over. She was 15 weeks with delicate features complete in formation; simply needed time to plump up. She had the beginnings of eyelashes, fingernails, a cleft in her chin.

She fluttered inside me the first time the day before I miscarried. The severe morning sickness I experienced throughout pregnancy had lifted a week prior. I was on the up and up, looking pregnant and feeling a bit more normal, ready to welcome the next phase of pregnancy.

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